It's still surreal, I'm still wrapping my brain around this new reality. I was diagnosed with breast cancer on Tuesday, June 26th, 2018. I have had a crazy range of emotions and need to find a way to own this new journey I am on. Those who know me well, know that I struggle with opening up about my feelings and struggles so I thought the best way for me to force myself to not act like I have everything under control is to blog about it. I am new to both the blogging world and the cancer world so bear with me as I figure out both.
My goal is to document my fight and share information that will hopefully help someone else going through this scary, intimidating, mindfuck of a diagnosis. I hope to document my feelings, good and bad, so that when I beat this thing I have my story in my words to treasure forever. I will update as often as I can and definitely when I have a new procedure. I'm a little awkward right now because all of this is so new, but I think I will get better at all of this as I get more familiar with everything.
If you are reading this, you are part of my team. You're officially drafted! I am not afraid to admit that I absolutely need a team to help me get through this. I'm scared and I'm overwhelmed, but I am trying to get to my fight. I know it's in there, I see glimpses of it now and then, but I'm not there quite yet. I'm still scared and crying way too much, and I'm pissed that this is part of my life. There is only one option - to beat it. I have far too much to live for and I will get to the fight in me. I hosted a dinner party at my house last weekend and was surrounded by people who love me, believe in me, and are reminding me of the strength I have in me. I've attached a photo here of my Austin team, I mean check out how amazing these people are. To take the time to come kickoff the begining of our fight, encourage me and just show up for me. These are the kind of things that will help me get strong, I love every single person in this photo and feel so incredibly lucky to have such amazing people in my life.
Thank you for taking the time to read this, I hope to hear from you. I'd love to hear your stories, jokes, tips and love. I have been through quite a few procedures already and will post sections about each of them soon. Today is my first surgery though, getting my port placed in my chest...I will be sure to detail what that means and how it goes, for now though, I just want to say thank you for being on my team. We will beat this!!
xoxo,
Leslie